I was regarded by my sister as an Anime-slash-Manga addict.
But I am still in denial.
Now I realized that I had spent 2-3 hours in front of the computer just to shift my worries from school and free my anxiousness by indulging myself in reading mangas and watching amvs.
A lot happened during this day.
I couldn’t tell every detail.
But this was medical hand washing demonstration day.
And my performance did not even reach the tail of my expectations.
It was bad…because now that I realized it, I always expect the BEST, if not, the BETTER.
I’m really sleepy as of this moment. And I compromised with myself to finish just 4 mangas tonight…before going to bed.
We have a quiz tomorrow, two of them to be exact.
But I can’t help it.
I don’t like this anymore.
It’s like I’m fooling myself…doing things that I don’t really love to do.
Actually, the truth of it is just that I only love something if i’m GOOD at it, if people find me GOOD at it, and if I find GOOD praises out of it.
Seems selfish? Seems stupid? As of now, it seems weird.
It is as if I’m pouring all of the thoughts and emotions hidden in the last 16 years in here.
I suddenly remembered that I have to write a letter to gain an extra scholarship (Truth of that, I wanted to help my parents, since my tuition this semester is oh-so-cheap [and I'm being sarcastic here] and at least add 15thousand to buy me a new gadget—or not. I’m not that materialistic, just slightly. *_*)
Oh whatever. I’m going to call it a day today. It’s almost midnight.
Goodbye November17, 2008…hello18.
^_^ GoodnYt
*oh and the anime addiction—call it denial, whatsoever. I call it a getaway just every “once in a while’. Okay?
It’s not like I’m doing something illegal.
So I like animes. So what? You got a problem with that?
Call it childish. I call it mature and well-written (although I gotta admit, some animes are really STUPID)
Whatever.
